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 Posted: 2012-07-02 07:30 pm
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archubbycub
Just a fun loving cuddly chub
 

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Ok just giving a quick update. The weekend with the in-laws went smoother than expected. I still think my father-in-law is hacked off, mostly due to the fact that he barely spoke while I was around, but that's ok because at least he wasn't pumping me for answers. The kids went home with the in-laws yesterday, giving me and the wife some time alone this week. I've decided I'm going to "lay low" for awhile, at least until the kids are both old enough to take care of themselves (youngest will turn 11 next month). That way she can't hold them over me when I decide that I'm leaving. And even then
I'm not going to make my leaving her a matter of my sexuality. In fact I don't even intend to bring that up unless she does. But until then I'm going to slip back into the closet, at least as far as everyone else is concerned. As for myself, I know who I am inside and I'm comfortable with that. It may soun harsh, and I know it's not going to be easy, but with the way she uses the kids and my emotions against me, I really don't see any other way. Plus it will give me plenty of time to set things into motion as far as finances and a place to live and everything else goes.



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This is how I'm suppose to be
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That don' believe in me

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