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 Posted: 2012-06-23 12:18 am
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Just a fun loving cuddly chub

Joined: 2012-06-15
Location: Arkansas USA
Posts: 45
I don't think I could get to the point of hurting myself. I'm too chicken for that. But it has gotten where I just "don't care" if I live or die, even before I said anything. Hell even before I came to grips with it all myself! I have type two diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, and I'm on Wellbutrin an Prozac now! But there are times I think, I'll just stop taking my meds and let my body do the rest. I'm not sleeping at night, I can't concentrate at work, I don't want to go home. The one outlet I've found in all of this is performing in the summer musical at the local community art center. For those brief few hours, I don't have to be myself! I don't have the worry and the stress. And the only bad part about it is, she keeps asking if I'm sleeping with one of the other guys in the musical or with the director!! I'm afraid if she keeps at it she's going to drive me to do it, and then it's going to be an even bigger mess!

And there's nothing wrong with me
This is how I'm suppose to be
In a land of make believe
That don' believe in me

"Jesus of Suburbia" --Green Day
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