|View single post by MissImaan|
|Posted: 2012-06-16 10:21 pm||
My name is Imaan Evans, I am 17 years old and I know that I am in love with a girl, my girlfriend, her name is Angie, it has been 5 months dating. Angie just turned 21 years old in May.
According to the subject,there at the top, I love my girlfriend like no other and I know I am for sure that I am gay and not straight or even bi-sexual...
My family; my mom knows that I am dating Angie, but my dad doesn't and I don't know when to tell him. Before any of my fmaily coming in, my relationship has not been on the 'down-low' on facebook, and I had family as my friends... few days later my mom kept telling me to stop being so open on facebook. I don't in any way see facebook as an escape from real life, facebook to me is honestly...real life haha. So, from when my mom totally told me to just shut up on facebook, I couldn't, so I just bloacked all my fmaily memebers. I feel that my mom is embarrassed of me... not jsut my mom, I brought my girlfriend over to watch a soccer game on t.v, when she left, my grandmother was like "Is she lesbian?"
I just simply replied "yes, is that a problem?"
She said "Yes, it makes me look bad, i don't like it"
I told my grandmother I didn't care if it embarrassed her, because this is who I am and who I will always be, I am a person with feelings for the same sex and I feel like I am being shunned from my family.
When I was in my room watching a movie today, I overheard my family talking and they were like "gay marriage is like a disease"
I got so very upset, so angry I couldn't even explain how angry. I hated the way they thought, how most people think towards gay/bi/lesbian/transgeneder etc;
With my dad... I don't know when to tell him, he honestly makes me scared and I hate it.
My sister think I have changed majorly because of my girlfriend... my girlfriend has done nothing but, make me happy. If I changed.. it happened on its own.
On September 17,2011, I has a surgery; the gastric bypass. Till this day, I have lost 135 pounds total and more to go. I believe this is my only way of showing proof that I have changed because I have gained confidence in myself, I am more outgoing and want to be around people. I smile more and love to dance for once in my life. I Love to laugh and not feel depressed, lonely and suicidal...
My family is making me have these feelings to want to harm myself... But, I am strong to not do that, it's stupid if I did, but these feelings ache a lot... I don't know if there are others who are experienceing this , which I am sure there are thousands, but this sucks what we are going through.
Angie has been supporting me non-stop... she even helped me get into a college that I have dreamed of and will be attending there in the summer of 2013.
So I was wondering, from even typing this post,can anyone give me some advice...
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