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 Posted: 2012-05-11 01:05 am
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My problem is that I'm trying to label myself, I don't want to, it is just easier to understand everything if you fit into a label. I need to realize that this is one of those things in life that isn't just black and white. I'm confused because I really like girls, I'm not really into guys, but there is this one guy that I know, and I REALLY like him. Right now there is a guy (the only guy I like) and a girl, and I don't know which one to pursue, you know? Also because I like this guy, I feel like I can't call myself gay. I like, I think that is what I'm doing now, I feel safer labeling myself as bisexual rather than lesbian. Although I really like girls, I feel like I will never have the same things with a girl than if I was with a guy. I don't have anyone in my family or any friends who are in the LGBTQ community either, so I feel like I have nobody to talk to about being gay.

No I'm not religious, I just keep second guessing myself, like, "No, I can't be a lesbian........ maybe this is just a phase.........". I guess it just struck me with surprise because I never really thought about it.

I feel like lesbians never like me because I always say I'm bisexual, even though I don't really think I am, and they always say things like, "Oh......... Your bisexual? I've dated a few before, I'll never do that again, now I only date lesbian... ect." The girls I like too are always the more butch ones too, and they think I'm straight.

I'm making it more difficult than it needs to be, I know........ I also write too much, so sorry about that, but I feel so much better getting all of this out. :]

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