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I'm going through the same thing right now. It's been frustrating trying to figure out exactly how I identify. Usually, people tell me "don't try to put a label on yourself, just be you." Even so, it can be aggravating not to know. Initially, I identified as bisexual, but after about 6 months I started tentatively saying I was lesbian. I realized I was much more interested in girls and noticed them more often. I just didn't connect with guys the same. Every now and then, I meet a guy who's pretty cool, but usually it's just girls. Really, you just gotta get a feel for what's right for you. What feels natural? What feels right?
As for the dress, I feel pretty much the same as you too. Some days, I feel girly, but usually I feel more like myself and more comfortable dressing in guys's clothes. Also, I understand about feeling self conscious with dressing more masculine in public. You should just do what you feel ready for. But ultimately, I say, be yourself. Sometimes it can be hard to be exactly who you want for fear of being judged, but it can also be exhilerating and fulfilling. Like I said though, just do what you're ready for.