|View single post by Jepherry|
|Posted: 2014-08-05 08:14 pm||
|Hello everyone, I am brand new to this forum so let me give you the full story.
I am male and 22 years old
When I was 13 I first discovered my sexuality, and I knew right from the off that it wasn't typical what I liked, back then my first sexual thing I found was something called female domination, now this was on the internet, I had no girlfriend and I explored that further. About a year after I discovered that, I started noticing the men in these internet videos as well as the women, and i started to feel attracted to both. Then I met my girlfriend (she is still my current one) but I never told her about any of this.
Years go by, she and I have been through a lot in our relationship but we are still together, and my interest stays with female domination and things to that effect. (especially when the women would wear a strapon). But when I turned about 19-22 I was interested in cross dressing, at first it was just a branch of this female domination thing, the women would "force" me to dress up and "please" a guy. and this was enough for a while until very recently. When about a couple months ago I stopped being into the cross dressing as much (though I do still enjoy it) and now I am fantasizing about guys more and more. I am confused as to weather or not I am bi, or gay, and when I told my current girl friend this (same one I have had since I was 13) she said well. If you turn out bi, then we can have an open relationship and you can see men on the side if that is what you want. If you are gay, then we will still be friends, but I need to know as soon as humanly possible.
So when I first told her there were some arguments and eventually she said that. (what I said above) and now I am on a journey to discover myself, am I bi? or gay? I need to know that for sure, I am finding myself currently less attracted to women then I am too men, however, I have never tried anything with a man before so I don't know if this is all in my head or all true. I have used toys but they are not a good indicator of things. It felt good to use the toys for sure, and I do tend to go through fazes (as you can read) however, all of my fazes had something to do with male sex organs. Never just a women, I also find trans gender people very attractive.
My girlfriend though understanding does not like these same things in the bedroom, she likes just I guess you could call it regular sex, and recently that was enough, to have sex with her and have my own fantasies, however as of late we haven't been having much and my fantasies are turning more towards men then they have in the past.
Any advice at all would be fantastic! She is staying at a friends hous until all this is sorted, and well I miss having her around, because despite all this I do love her. I always have and I always will, in form or another.