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|well, it may be a fantasy with that particular guy - but you can certainly find someone else who is self aware, proud and comfortable with himself!
I think you might be fooling yourself when you say that you are out because you share who you are with those closest to you. Sexuality is a huge part of who we are and it is impossible to pick and choose who we let know and still be centered and live a fulfilling life. Now, I'm not saying we all need to say it first thing to everyone we meet, but, should effort be made to hide who we are (unless we are in real danger by doing so)? no - in my opinion. If your sexauality is more widely known you won't have to dream about an easy realationship with someone who seems incredibly repressed because others will find you.
I think you are on a positive path and are moving on a path of being fully realized and comfortable completely with yourself (and thus letting the world know who you are). Believe me - when you are out to everyone life actually gets way easier.