|View single post by mehhh1989|
|Posted: 2012-12-16 11:54 am||
|23, gay, sane.........and stillllllll a virgin.
I have been thinking about this quite a bit lately, and with my 24th birthday coming up in a few months, I can't help but cringe at the thought of turning another year older without ever having been in any type of relationship.
I honestly could care less about the sex, I guess for me I mostly just want to know what it is like to be close to someone.
Is it weird that I am actually extremely embarrassed that I haven't had sex before? Because honestly I would rather be a big fat slut than to continue to be a virgin.
I think what has gotten me down the most is seeing people around me, my age, starting to get married and have kids, and here I am, by myself.
By the way, I am totally not a virgin by choice. It takes two, and I can't even seem to give it away.
Like I said above, it's not the sex, it's everything else that is connected with sex that I would like to experience...such as a relationship.
I don't really have anyone to talk to about this seeing as I don't really have any friends, and I really don't feel like this would be an appropriate conversation to have with either of my parents.
I suppose this mostly has been caused by my extreme lack of self-esteem, but at the same time, I can't recall a single moment where someone flirted with me.
I'm not horrible looking, I smell nice, and I am kind to those around me, I have a degree, I'm neither loud or obnoxious, and I drive safely.
So I'm left wondering where I went wrong?
Any advice? just feeling kind of blahh...for like the last 5 years or so. Please forgive any spelling mistakes, it's 4am (can't sleep).