A little about me, coildnt express myself growing up, it wasnt that kinda family.
I've delt with that through counciling..lol
I've had issues with anxiety as far back as grade 4, ocd, depression.
Met my exwife when I was 15 & divorced 13 yrs later.
I took it pretty hard mainly because it wasnt the way I thought It should go.
The white picket fence idea!
I've delt with that in couciling too lol
Ive had one relationship in 14 yrs since the divorce.The lady i dated was bisexual & I was very attracted to her in the beginning but after awhile I couldnt perform in the bedroom.
I have no drive to date women or men.I'm attracted too women and aroused by some male atomy.
Im tired of being lost depressed, frustrated, feeling of going nowhere.
Transgender ..I dont know
If anyone can share some thoughts i'd really appreciate it
Sounds like you could be bisexual although it doesn't sound like a strong urge because it doesn't seem as if you put yourself in a place to experiement with being with men.
You threw transgender in the mix but you haven't mentioned not feeling like you have the correct body parts - which is usually the feeling with those who are transgender. If you are happy with being a man then I do not think that you are transgender.
If you are depressed or on any kind of anxiety drugs, etc., you may be just experiencing a low sex drive due to the drugs.
Thanx for your reply, I never thought of the feeling of not being in the right body. It makes sence, I've been looking online to see if I can figure out things .. but I guess really online isn't the best way to go.
I cant really say that ive tried meeting anybody too see if im gay.
When I was really young maybe around 10, 11 , friend and I tried abit of an experience, but I ,and hiim didnt feel right, so I blocked it out ; never pursued it again.
Ive just started meds again after about a year and a half . I know what you mean about the side affects ; its worse with high doses.
Lol , as I get older , im told ..testosterone levels go down too.