Recently I have kind of felt that I may be bisexual/gay. I keep putting it off and telling myself that it is a phase but it's gone on and on. This makes me think that it is right, but I really don't know whether I'm bisexual or gay right now. I like girls for happiness because I will probably have awkward relationships if I liked boys, but recently I've just felt more like I should date a boy instead of a girl.
I absolutely have no idea who I should tell first - I'm thinking my parents last, because even though they're fine with homosexuals and have friends that are, I just don't think it will end well. A close friend doesn't seem very easy either, because it could strain the relationship. I'm considering telling a girl in my class who supports gay people a lot, and I'm thinking that maybe she could help me.
Everytime I think about it, I tell myself that I will come out the next day. But when it comes to it, I just feel really worried that something will go wrong and I will be judged then i'll blush really bad (I have a phobia of blushing) and I really don't want that to happen.